Smoking Notice

I quit, I really did. I NEED A SUCKER.

Green

The theme of my dorm room is “green.” Well, green and tie dye of course. I didn’t mean for it to happen but as I was picking out a laundry basket, a charging station, hangers, plastic storage, and other stuff it all turned out to be green. And it was all the same color green, a soft grass, olive color. After a quick online search I have found that “green symbolizes life, nature, fertility and well being. Grass green is the most restful color. Green symbolizes self-respect and well being. Green is the color of balance. It also means learning, growth and harmony. Green is a safe color.”

I have no idea why, but I wonder if a part of me is trying to calm the other part of me down by picking out a calming color. I’m going to admit it. I am TERRIFIED of going to college. I have spent several nights crying at the thought of leaving everything I know, especially Grace.

I’ve tried to visualize what my visits home will be like. I’ll run into the house yelling at her and we’ll run to each other squealing. Then we’ll hug and talk about everything even though we already talked about it on the phone. Then I’ll get on facebook and I’ll show her all of the new people in my life. And I’m sure Elly will be there too. And at this point (not in my imagination) I’m crying all over my pillow hating how I chose a college four hours away.

Side note: it is probably the worst thing in the world to get sick away from home, your own bed and your mommy. I’m going to have Kelly drive down EVERYTIME I feel a cough coming on.

And I still haven’t learned who my roommate is! Gaaaah