Right Now

I’m supposed to be writing an essay. It’s well on it’s way, but I’ve slowed down and can’t get back on track.

College is not what I thought it would be. I don’t like Murray State the way I thought I would. Honestly the only thing I want to do right now is move back home and go to Meramec. I’m tried of the south. I broke this news to my dad, who told me transfers are very common and I shouldn’t feel ashamed. But I just can’t help feeling like if I had put in more effort last year, I would be so much more happy this year. I’ve already begun the college search all over again, this time I’m looking west- NOT south. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve met some nice people here, but I just don’t like the campus, the work isn’t challenging and they just do not offer everything I need. I need mountains, fresh air, culture. I do not need chewing tobacco, cowboys and racism. I’m going to last out the year, I told my parents I could do that, but I’m going to be VERY proactive about my college search- much more than last time.

Ugh, I can’t believe I’m doing this all over again. Pray I make the right choice this time.